Last week I attended the funeral Mass of a sister from the Franciscan Missionary of Mary. I knew her way before I entered the convent, while in Church of St. Bernadette. We do not have much exchange but occasional greetings and I remember she was also hoping that I would someday joined them as a FMM sister. Well, guess God has another plan for me.
Anyway, quite a number of people I knew attended this service and at the end of the Mass, I was praying and a young man I knew (not so well though) stood beside me and ask: when is your turn, is it going to be at your convent's chapel? I was a bit stunned when I heard that and in fact was a bit agitated. In fact, I felt offended by the way he said it. Why would someone ask such a question? I felt him being so insensible and bluntly answered: well, I would not know where I would be.
Since then, I have been questioning my reaction to that. Yes, no doubt I felt so inappropriate and insensitive for that person to ask such a question. Maybe it is due to my "chinese superstitious" background. Afterall, we never know when our turn will come, right? I am not ready to face the word death nor I do not want to face it, despite the fact that I need to face it someday. I pray that the Lord will give me the grace and courage to prepare and to embrace with peace and serenity.
Anyway, quite a number of people I knew attended this service and at the end of the Mass, I was praying and a young man I knew (not so well though) stood beside me and ask: when is your turn, is it going to be at your convent's chapel? I was a bit stunned when I heard that and in fact was a bit agitated. In fact, I felt offended by the way he said it. Why would someone ask such a question? I felt him being so insensible and bluntly answered: well, I would not know where I would be.
Since then, I have been questioning my reaction to that. Yes, no doubt I felt so inappropriate and insensitive for that person to ask such a question. Maybe it is due to my "chinese superstitious" background. Afterall, we never know when our turn will come, right? I am not ready to face the word death nor I do not want to face it, despite the fact that I need to face it someday. I pray that the Lord will give me the grace and courage to prepare and to embrace with peace and serenity.