Few days ago I was sitting by the beach alone, looking at the sea, reflecting on the wonderful things and people God has given me in paticular these past 3 months. i started to feel a bit emotional especially for the love various people are showing me. Though the sea was calm, it somehow gave me a sense of insecurity, fear, doubt. Am I really that loveable? Do I truly deserve all these love and perhaps even attentions from people? Are they sincere not just because I am a sister? Am I willing to take the risk to embrace these love, friendship that others genuinely offer to me? Am I willing to be open to trust, to love and even to be hurt?
Funny, and even weird, you might think, that I am having all these thoughts. Isn't that I should be focusing in God and His business? Hey, don't forget, I am human too. I am vulnerable, weak and I do need love and affirmations and even closed friends (if God so will to give me.). Besides I always believe that God shows His love through the events and people He gives us in our lives.
Put into deep water... For me today, I feel the Lord is inviting me to trust, to have the courage to take the risk to reach out, to give my love and not to be afraid of rejections or the response of the others nor the unknown. Whatever He puts in my life, be it people, things or events, they are all signs of His love and presence.
Funny, and even weird, you might think, that I am having all these thoughts. Isn't that I should be focusing in God and His business? Hey, don't forget, I am human too. I am vulnerable, weak and I do need love and affirmations and even closed friends (if God so will to give me.). Besides I always believe that God shows His love through the events and people He gives us in our lives.
Put into deep water... For me today, I feel the Lord is inviting me to trust, to have the courage to take the risk to reach out, to give my love and not to be afraid of rejections or the response of the others nor the unknown. Whatever He puts in my life, be it people, things or events, they are all signs of His love and presence.